It blows my mind that there are people in the world who have never hit someone. I mean, that's great, the world should have a lot of people who have never hit anyone. But I really have a hard time wrapping my mind around the concept.
You can't just do anything you want (not that I want to mostly
) when you're of a certain size and strength. You have to be extra careful and extra in control around people than if you were smaller and weaker in fact. It's too
easy to hurt people and it is the easy and stupid way out of your frustration. It's too easy
to appear threatening without trying.
I'm 100 pounds, about 5'5". My cousin is about ten pounds more, an inch or two taller. She gets visibly concerned when my tone is anything other than playful. She could easily take me in a fight now, but she used to be smaller than me (I'm three years older).
We used to be pretty vicious to each other, actually. One of our fights (the only one she won
), she slammed my head into a dresser a few times. Her dad was cheering her on while our grandma was just watching in shock. XD (And again, this is the only
fight she won, so we can't be too mad at her dad for cheering. I deserved it.)
But yeah, we're like BFF now. She just... avoids ticking me off.
Long story short: I'm a reformed bad girl. And my sex appeal just went up ten-thousand points for it.
nobutsrsly, I haven't hit anyone in a non-playful way in years now. But I'm teensy and have scared people larger than me.