The unofficial bad day thread.

[AmberBeth84]

Thanks you both, I really appreciate the hugs. It gave me happy tears instead of sad ones.

[Captain LeBubbles]

Thanks you both, I really appreciate the hugs. It gave me happy tears instead of sad ones.

\o/

[Artemisia]

I'm glad you feel better, Amber. You aren't alone in going through what you are.

[Black Cat Godess]

Today has been utterly terrible for me.

I got bitched at by an employee for daring to say "I don't understand why I have to do this" when that same employee jokes about it with one of my coworkers. He kept going at me, even after I apologized for affronting him (on accident, mind) and he then attempted to shame me into feeling bad about the whole thing. He also had the gall to say something later today within my boss' hearing that was about "Why don't we just fix it so IQ (my department) doesn't have to do anything and just stands around all day?" I know he was saying that because of what I had said earlier. And for the record, IQ doesn't stand around really at all and does a lot of shit to keep the plant we work at running. Also, this employee I'm talking about? HIS department, and him, stand around far more than we do and with less reason. I also had about fifty things dumped on me today and it just occurred to me that I forgot to do one of them in the rush to try and complete more important tasks. I also had to go back into work because my boss called while I was making dinner to say that another department in the plant didn't do their job and didn't give to us an order they needed filled.

BY ONE IN THE MORNING.

So I went back into work to fill the order by myself (which is very labor intensive as it requires slinging around heavy boxes) and the only good news there is that I can go into work later tomorrow and I get paid for at least two hours, even though I didn't work that long. Not only that, but I forgot to make my boyfriend lunch this morning and nearly flubbed dinner despite extensive planning.

I'm now just looking forward to a nice massage from said boyfriend and a hopefully less stressful day at the plant tomorrow. Also, today was the one year anniversary for me working for this company.

Happy anniversary to me.

[Zanosuke Kurosaki]

Despite studying a lot more than I did the first time, and getting a lot more sleep than I did the first time, I didn't pass my A+ exam retake. Last time, I missed by about 4 questions. According to the math, I missed 11-13 this time. And this despite spending the last week with my head pretty deeply in this blasted book that I could probably bludgeon a man to death with (I'm not exaggerating, it's a good 1346 pages thick.) I think I'm going to sit down with a non-tech book, or a video game for a while, maybe I'll feel better after some mindless actions... =\

[NobodySpecial]

13 days in a row is now 21. Even the prospect of three straight checks with 50 hours of overtime on them won't pull me out of knife-edge security, though. Plus my cat has decided eating is optional.

[Valerie]

13 days in a row is now 21. Even the prospect of three straight checks with 50 hours of overtime on them won't pull me out of knife-edge security, though. Plus my cat has decided eating is optional.

Did you change your cat's food brand recently? Maybe he/she doesn't like the new one. Or if she/he's had shots lately or if you rearranged furniture or something...?

As for everything else, *hugs for everyone*

[NobodySpecial]

13 days in a row is now 21. Even the prospect of three straight checks with 50 hours of overtime on them won't pull me out of knife-edge security, though. Plus my cat has decided eating is optional.

Did you change your cat's food brand recently? Maybe he/she doesn't like the new one. Or if she/he's had shots lately or if you rearranged furniture or something...?

As for everything else, *hugs for everyone*

No, we put her on the thyroid food, and that went great guns at first. She ate well. Then she stopped eating much of the wet food, so we switched to dry. That went ok for a while, now she won't eat either one, and seems to be having stomach problems. I'm probably going to have to take her to the vet this week, and I'm betting what I hear won't be good.

[Black Cat Godess]

You may want to try raw food. Dry food can be very bad for cats as it is high in carbs. Instinct puts out a very good raw food that you can buy in some grocery stores and over the internet. I would suggest either trying to feed some to your cat after it has been warmed (think dead mouse body temp) or mix some in with the wet food. My cat has been thriving on it and the only caveat is you need to wash the bowl with hot soapy water after.

[Artemisia]

NobodySpecial,

I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm having a bad time of things right now. Right now, I want to take a knife to my skin and hurt myself. I hate how I look, and really hate how I was born physically. For some reason, I feel so ashamed of how I was born.

[Doc Harleen]

NobodySpecial,

I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm having a bad time of things right now. Right now, I want to take a knife to my skin and hurt myself. I hate how I look, and really hate how I was born physically. For some reason, I feel so ashamed of how I was born.

Artemisia, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been going through so much bad stuff. I don't think I can say anything that can help, but I really hope you don't hurt yourself. I used to self-harm, and it doesn't fix anything. It only makes things worse, and you don't want to end up with any permanent damage. I'm not equipped to make things better for anyone, but I'm sending some hugs your way, and I'm thinking of you and hoping you feel better.

[Artemisia]

NobodySpecial,

I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm having a bad time of things right now. Right now, I want to take a knife to my skin and hurt myself. I hate how I look, and really hate how I was born physically. For some reason, I feel so ashamed of how I was born.

Artemisia, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been going through so much bad stuff. I don't think I can say anything that can help, but I really hope you don't hurt yourself. I used to self-harm, and it doesn't fix anything. It only makes things worse, and you don't want to end up with any permanent damage. I'm not equipped to make things better for anyone, but I'm sending some hugs your way, and I'm thinking of you and hoping you feel better.

Thank you Doc. I haven't self harmed in about a year and a half now. I haven't found a therapist that I've been comfortable with in order to discuss this, and sometimes I'm not even sure what wrong other than when I feel sexy or aroused, I also end up feeling so ashamed and wrong and want to hurt myself and I know I need to not to.

[NobodySpecial]

NobodySpecial,

I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm having a bad time of things right now. Right now, I want to take a knife to my skin and hurt myself. I hate how I look, and really hate how I was born physically. For some reason, I feel so ashamed of how I was born.

Artemisia, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been going through so much bad stuff. I don't think I can say anything that can help, but I really hope you don't hurt yourself. I used to self-harm, and it doesn't fix anything. It only makes things worse, and you don't want to end up with any permanent damage. I'm not equipped to make things better for anyone, but I'm sending some hugs your way, and I'm thinking of you and hoping you feel better.

Thank you Doc. I haven't self harmed in about a year and a half now. I haven't found a therapist that I've been comfortable with in order to discuss this, and sometimes I'm not even sure what wrong other than when I feel sexy or aroused, I also end up feeling so ashamed and wrong and want to hurt myself and I know I need to not to.

Well, I was born ugly, but I'm sure that's not in the same time zone as being born in the wrong body. All I can do is tell you is that any damage you do to your outside won't fix your inside. Ever. I'd also say that shame is imposed on you by other people, and to hell with them, and enjoy yourself FOR yourself. Don't hate yourself for morons. If it helps.

[Artemisia]

Thank you. I feel a bit better today. Most of the time, I can put off the pain and dysphoria, but it sometimes catches up with me.

[Black Cat Godess]

I can't even begin to empathize with what you're going through, Artemisia, but I hope our words help you, even if it is in some small way. You are special and loved, don't ever forget that.